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Hey there!

I just wanted to peep in and say that I’m still here. I started a new job a few weeks ago so that has been keeping me pretty busy. I’m adjusting my schedule and routines to this new job. It has left little time to write or focus on my blog. I am hoping to do a couple posts the next week for sure.

As we all know, life can get busy sometimes. One of my goals for 2018 is to stay dedicated here and give you  more content. These first few weeks haven’t been the greatest start, but I hope I can make up for it.

I have a few other goals that I set for myself in 2018.

  1. I am trying to stay dedicated. I want to post on social media more often. I have been posting on Instagram daily for the past few weeks, but I may cut that back a bit. It’s all about quality rather than quantity. Also, I want to stay dedicated to my cleaning lists, beauty routines, working out, and my job.

  2. Expand my overall audience. For example, by the end of 2018, I would like to have 2,000 followers on Instagram.

  3. Be as creative as I can. I want to decorate more and become better. I want to do the unexpected and create signature trends.

  4. I would to be open to possibilities. The confidence to take chances and leaps towards my future and opportunities ahead of me. This isn’t easy for a shy, sensitive, and self-conscious person. It’s time to put a brave face on and have thicker skin.

  5. Which leads me to my last goal, I would like to believe in myself. I want to be able to brush the hate away and know my worth. Tonight I had a “troll” attack me in the comments section of a fellow bloggers post. It really has brought me down all night. I can’t get it off my mind. I don’t understand why some people have to be cruel, but I just have to keep my head up.

Anyway, I have been working on some Valentines Day décor and I can’t wait to show you all!

Thanks for reading!

Leopard Cardigan


Hey there!

So, I was going to have this awesome chicken recipe for you guys this week, but let’s just say it didn’t turn out very well. I’m thinking I left it in the crockpot a tad bit too long and it turned out pretty bland and dry. Guess I’ll have to try that one again.

What I do have is this awesome leopard cardigan to show you! I wore this for Thanksgiving this year and I loved it! It’s super soft, comfortable, and how can you not love leopard print?! Unfortunately, this sweater was so popular, it sold out! The original one from Hollister was about $50, but here is a similar one for $59.

This ivory colored tank is perfect under a cardigan, but is also beautiful on its own for summer months. I love the lace detail and the best part, it’s only $25! The jeggings are American Eagle Super Super Stretch (I seriously can’t get enough of them, they are SO comfortable!) and are on sale for $29.99! These suede over the knee boots are from Bohme. They are very soft and have a beautiful lace up pattern on the back.


Goulash


Hey there!

Today I have a recipe post for you! The weather is getting chilly and it’s time to stock up on some comfort food recipes. This is actually my grandma’s recipe that she so kindly gave me. I have loved her goulash since I was little and still do to this day. It’s one of those foods that is amazing left-over, which is perfect for harvest season. Honestly, it’s almost better the second day. To top it all off, it’s super easy to make and on budget.

Servings:

  • I would say about 6

Ingredients:

  • 3/4 box of Large Elbow Macaroni

  • 1 can of Tomato Soup (10 3/4 oz)

  • 1 can of Stewed Tomatoes (14.5 oz)

  • 1 pound of ground beef

  • Ketchup

  • Salt & Pepper

Instructions:

  1. Place water and noodles into pot, turn burner on high, and let heat until boiling (continually stir the noodles throughout this process so the noodles don’t stick)

  2. Put thawed out ground beef into skillet and begin to brown.

  3. Drain the fat during the browning process or after

  4. After fat has been drained and meat has been browned, turn skillet onto low setting

  5. Stir stewed tomatoes and tomato soup into skillet for 3-5 minutes

  6. Once water has boiled and noodles are cooked to your liking, drain the water

  7. Stir in the meat, tomato soup, and stewed tomatoes with the noodles in the pot.

  8. Add ketchup (your preference of how much) and stir it into the pot

  9. Sprinkle salt and pepper for taste

Note: I’m not a fan of how large stewed tomatoes are so I cut them up into smaller pieces


Thanks for reading!

 

Sunflower Field “Photoshoot”


Hey there!

A few months back my best friend and I took a trip to a local sunflower field and did a little “photoshoot”.

Being a girl with anxiety and a very low self-esteem definitely has its set backs. I wasn’t always like this…in middle school I didn’t give a shit about what others thought of me. I was the girl with skunk hair wearing bronzer that was way too dark for me and a black tutu around my waist. It was an awkward phase and a little embarrassing to look back on.

When 8th grade ended, so did the phase. A blessing and a curse I would say. I’m glad I grew out of it, but I feel like when this happened I lost a part of me. I’m not saying the heavy eyeliner and “Rawr” thing was who I was. I was just trying to figure it out at my own pace (and enjoying it). In high school I wanted to be like everyone else, and when you are trying to be like everyone else, you lose sight of who you are.

I was able to take a clear view in the mirror after graduation. All the “popular” girls had gone off to college and I was able to focus on me. Not only have I been able to discover who I am, but who my true friends are. I took these photos with my best friend. She has been there since grade school and I honestly don’t know what I would do without her. She encourages me to show my true colors to the world.

I think we need those type of people in our lives. The one’s that we have so much in common with, but celebrate our differences. The people we can be absolutely real with by sharing thoughts, ideas, and dreams. The friends that support us to live life as we want and to reach whatever goals we have.

I was hesitant about doing a “photoshoot”, because of who I am. The shy girl who doesn’t pose for a camera, because she’s afraid of what people will think. I decided to say “Fuck what other people think.” I am working on myself, and the only way to do this is to not be afraid.

We ended up having a wonderful afternoon and have more memories to look back on. As I allow myself to let go and have fun, the more I am enjoying life again.



Thanks for reading! 🙂

 

10 Life Lessons For the High School Me


1. Be Yourself, Fuck What Everyone Else Thinks

In High School I was completely lost. Hell, I still don’t know who I am, but I do know that I’m not trying to be someone else. At one point I asked an older classman “How can I get more people to like me?” he replied, “You dress up every day. You should try to chill a little bit, wear a t-shirt or something.” So, I wasn’t well liked because I didn’t dress like the “sporty girls” (which were the popular group in my high school). No honey, you are wonderful. Dressing nice makes you feel good, DO IT. Don’t follow the next trend just because everyone else is doing it. You are the trendsetter, not a follower. Be YOURSELF.

2. If Your Closest Friends Tell You He’s Holding You Back, LISTEN.

I dated a guy from 8th grade until my sophomore year of high school. All of my friends told me that I could do better, he was going no where in life, I put him too high up on a pedestal, I spent too much money on him, etc. Back then, it went in one ear and out the other. I wasted so much damn time on that relationship and it literally sucked the life out of me. Looking back, those friends were RIGHT and I realize how much of an idiot I was. I wasted so much time and energy on someone that I just cringe thinking about now. This may not be the case in EVERY situation, but it’s worth it to actually take in what your friends are saying. They are looking out for you, just as you are looking out for them.

3. Live Day By Day

You are in high school. You do not have bills to pay or a career at the moment. You may have a test coming up, but it’s going to be fine.. You’re smart. Please, go to the basketball game, the concert, or to the party. Be carefree while you can. Build up the memories, because every day is precious. Life is just a sum of your experiences, so gain some. The most exciting times I had in high school were with my friends drinking in their basement, playing beer pong, and cheering in the stands at basketball games. Don’t stress too much about the tomorrows.

4. Your Big Plan Will Change

In high school, I was focused on finding my path. I wanted a career that would take a few years of college and make $60,000 a year. Can we all please have a moment of silence (or laughter) at how naïve I was. Yeah…I graduated three years ago and I’ve had jobs from working in a factory to kitchen designing and they did not earn close to $60,000 or last too long. Focus on what you love and discovering your passions during this period. Now, will you end up in a career that you absolutely love? Not usually.. there are things that you will like and hate about your job, but at the end of the day it’s a paycheck. If you get involved in something that you actually love, then that is AMAZING! Sometimes dreams work out and you get the job you were planning in high school, plus make oodles of money… but don’t be surprised if that is not the case. You could change your “dream” or major six times. You may choose to not go to college at all (and that is OKAY!). You may plan to be married by 22, have a successful career, a brand new house by 24, and have three kids by 28. Life is not what you plan it to be. It could be in the totally opposite order. So, don’t get wrapped up in the big plan.

5. 90% of Your Classmates Become Irrelevant

This kind of goes along with “fuck what everyone else thinks”, because in a couple years you won’t remember half the people you went to school with. You will be on with your life and not worrying about what everyone thinks…because they’re worried about their own damn lives. This part of life gets easier after graduation. You start to care less about others perception of you. Some people will move far away and others may work in the same office as you, but you both have bigger things to worry about than how big your hair bump is. You may have not made homecoming court, but no one will care a year from now. The labels, gossip, and cliques are all temporary, don’t sweat it.

6. Compliments are Everything

You shouldn’t worry about what people think of you, but you can’t tell me that a compliment doesn’t make your day. High school is full of snickers and shit talking, but there are a few good souls out there. Seriously, try it. The best compliment I ever got was from a girl on the fourth of July a few years ago. She walked past me, looked at her friend, and exclaimed, “Oh my gosh, that girl is so pretty!” The compliment wasn’t even said directly to me. Just knowing this stranger said something so kind about me, truly made my day. I know us girls can be petty, but PLEASE take a minute of your day to make someone else’s.

7. Car Jams & Conversations Are Forever

Keep those old CDs and playlists. You know, the ones with the writing all over them? My first car was a Pontiac Sunfire. It was a pretty cheap car, but it had under glow and subs so it was pretty cool for my friends and I. We would blast the legally* burnt CDs from T-Pain to Shania Twain. My friend and I had a song called “I Hate My Life” by Theory of Deadman that we would literally scream to when we were having a bad day. Those cruises were full of singing to the top of our lungs, tears from bad days, and maybe a little hearing loss from the subs being too loud. Again, KEEP THOSE PLAYLISTS, because when you get together with those old friends or just want to reminisce…they will bring you right back to that car.

8. Learn The Basic Functions of “Adulting”

I moved out the day I graduated. I wish I would’ve known how to do certain things like- how do you brown hamburger meat? How often do I need to clean? Oh, the reason I have so many damn spiders is because you’re supposed to spray for bugs. Oh really? The things I feel are common sense now, were foreign to me then. Learn how to pay a bill, budgeting, cook basic meals, replacing furnace filters, how to flip a breaker, and that drinking a bottle of wine by yourself should be celebrated.

9. Your Mom & Sister Will Become Your Best Friends

Okay, this may not be true for EVERYONE. My sister and I spent our fair share of name calling, hair pulling, and bitch slapping growing up. We said that we hated each other many times…She threatened to miss my graduation because she was mad at me once. After all the mayhem and hurtful words we still managed to watch scary movies and sing duets together. Mom was always so bossy and such a know-it-all. We made fun of her for always making a fuss to clean the house before company arrived. Truth be told, I cried during my first week on my own. I missed my mom…it wasn’t the same. At least once a week I will be over at her place, ruining her afternoon nap to talk about life. I call HER when I have questions or need advice, because she does know everything and I find myself scrambling to get my own house together for company. My sister is one of my best friends now. She is someone I can trust and talk to about anything. We also still sing incredible duets, in case you were wondering.

10. Keep Going, Keep Your Confidence, & Keep Having Faith

Make a habit of pushing yourself. Keep pushing yourself to get a better grade. Keep pushing yourself to hit that note in choir. Keep pushing towards your goals. Learn that there will be set backs, but you should try to overcome the obstacles. Some goals are just not meant to be, but that should be determined when all options are exhausted. People are going to tell you that you can’t do it, but you need to listen to the voice that truly matters; your own.  It hurts to hear you are not good enough or to get rejected for a job. It hurts your pride, but you need to get back on your feet. You may have a jack ass boss who said you were “Dumber than a teapot” & then quit that job because you know that you deserve better. What’s meant to be will happen, but you need to have the motivation and will to make it happen. Stay strong, be brave; you can do this.

 

 

 

 

Layered V-Neck Top

Hey there!

It has been a pretty relaxing day. You know, the kind of day where the hours just fly by? I spent most of my day riding on the lawn mower. We have had rain nonstop the past few days so it’s made the grass grow extra fast. I also have to admit that an untamed lawn is a huge pet peeve of mine. One of the most satisfying things for me is to see those straight lines and smell the fresh cut grass in the air. It’s the little things.

Today I have an outfit that kind of reminds me of spring, but I think it’s good to keep things interesting! It’s a flowy pinkish-light beige top (they call it macademia), white pants, and sassy leopard print shoes to throw it all together. This is one of those outfits that inspire me to be the hot mom in the Range Rover someday (keep dreaming right?).

The flowy v-neck and white Miss Me jeans are from Buckle. The V-neck is very soft and comfortable, but I will admit the neckline goes a little too low for my personal preference. I feel the money was worth it, because it was less than $30!  These jeans are seriously my favorite. I am obsessed with the rose gold stitching and beautiful design on the back pockets.

I also added this pink and gold necklace from Francescas to add a little sparkle.

My favorite part of this particular outfit is the leopard print heels from Nordstrom. I scored them for $90 when they were on sale!

Thanks for reading!

I was not paid from any links listed above.

 

My Favorite Nordstrom Anniversary Sale Finds


Sale Ends August 6th, 2017

#1 Tia Genuine Calf Hair Pump

Price: $89.90

#2 Siena Indoor/Outdoor Rug

(recommended to use indoors only)

Price: (5 x 7) $283.90

#3 1-Inch Gold Styler

Price: $133.00

 

#4 Oaxaca Prussian Duvet Cover

Price: (Queen/Full): $133.90

#5 ‘Mia – Electric Pink’ Sonic Skin Cleansing System

Price: $86.00

 

#6 Leather Jacket

Price: $199.90

#7 Madolee Over the Knee Boot

Price: $159.90

#8 Woven Jute & Cotton Rug

Price: $283.90

#9 Wonder Forest Pillow

Price: $32.90

#10 ‘Draper Stripe’ 300 Thread Count Sheet Set

Price: $133.90

#11 Pineapple Canvas Accent Pillow

Price: $25.90

#12 ‘Social Proper Ascot’ Pillow

Price: $32.90

 

#13 Wool Blend Reefer Coat

Price: $139.90

 

#14 ‘Translucent Tulip’ Giclée Print Framed Canvas Art

Price: $80.90

#15 Constantine Genuine Shearling Boot

Price: $109.90

 

I’m Sorry, I have Anxiety.


Yes, I am going to apologize for my condition. That’s part of what I do.. I apologize for situations that are out of my control, things that are not my fault, and I’m sorry for this seemingly self-absorbed post. I apologize so much that it probably annoys you. But that’s what I do best, right? Annoy people? See, that’s another part of what I am. I feel like I am over stepping my boundaries by talking too much. I think that you are constantly judging me.. you probably are though.

You most likely think I’m a bitch because you don’t see me smiling or say “Hello” when we pass by each other in the grocery store. But let me tell you, I’m not a bitch (most of the time).. I’m not a ray of sunshine and rainbows type of girl either. I don’t laugh at many jokes, but I blame that on my horrible sense of humor.. I may have the courage to say “Hi” to you one day, but other times I’m afraid it will lead to a conversation…what will I say? I’m horrible with small talk and I guess I’m too fragile to let you know who I am.

I’m fragile, I break easy.  A simple joke or a tiny bit of criticism may be nothing to you, but it can crush me. So, I’ve learned to shield myself from the damage. I don’t trust you…I hardly trust anyone. I don’t trust myself at times…I doubt, second guess, and wonder if I really know what the hell I am doing. Overthinking, one of my favorite things to do.

Please, don’t give me the decision to where we are going to eat. It seems like an easy task.. until it becomes battle in my mind because of the pressure “will I regret my choice?” “what if I don’t like it?” The pressure of people wanting more out of me than I can give. I know you want me to hold your baby, to show it some affection.. but I’m sorry. I don’t know what to do. Please, don’t think I hate it because that’s not the case. This little life will depend on me for maybe 5 minutes.. What if I do something wrong? What if it starts crying? What if the moment I hold it, I realize I will be a horrible mother someday. I don’t want to disappoint you, but I guess either way I am doing just that. The pressure and stress make me come off as a cold human being. This feeling is like a shadow to me. Will it go away if I just hide in the dark? I’m jealous of people that shine in the light.

Jealousy, Oh how you have become so familiar. It brings out the best and worst in me. It makes me want to do better. If they can do it, I surely can too (if not better)… but there are the things I can’t change.. I can’t make myself gain weight to fit cute boutique clothing, because I lose it no matter what I do. I can’t get as many likes on Instagram as her, because I was simply not born that pretty or outgoing. I can’t get that job, because they can sense my fear. I can’t hide my insecurities from you.

But, it’s not all bad…It does get easier, some days. I have these ground breaking moments, I overcome an obstacle. I went grocery shopping at Walmart by myself today. I drove down main street in a city. I went to a bar with a crowd full of people…and I was okay. I didn’t break down and I didn’t leave. I celebrate with a smile and a proud “I did it!” moment.. I don’t tell anyone else about it though…to them it’s normal. It’s nothing special.

I’m fighting like hell. There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I can see it peak through the cracks on my good days. I want to accomplish my goals and dreams. I want to decide where to eat and not second guess it. I want to be a good mother when the time comes. I want to have the courage to get any job I want, to do anything I want. It is easier to succumb into the darkness, to stay in my comfort zone. But where is the life in that? I know there are bad days.. but the good days are worth the battle. So I will keep fighting until I can smile every day.

Thank you for reading,

                                               Janelle.


 

 

Another Stepping Stone.

Have you ever had a time in life where you thought you were finally on the right track? You thought “This could be it”.. or “This might be what I’m meant to do”… Until you feel like you’ve just been run over by a truck when it turns out to be just another stepping stone. If you’re anything like me, every pivotal decision is just part of the journey to finally figuring out what I was put on this Earth for.

When I graduated High School I was interested in Science. I wanted to have a job that required expertise, I enjoyed, and would have moderate pay. I was accepted into a radiology program at my local college. I was required to do some job shadowing and thank God for that, because I realized it was not my calling. After some thought I realized that as much as I loved Science…the medical field wasn’t for me.

I decided to get an Associate of Arts degree for general knowledge and to buy some time to figure out my life. I would have never expected to enjoy accounting. I hated math growing up and I wasn’t all that great at it. I was taking a personal finance class and I actually enjoyed it. I was even good at it, who knew? So the next semester I majored in accounting.

Along with taking accounting classes I was working for a factory over nights at this time. The factory told me that they would have an office position for me (most likely) once I graduated college. The plan was to pay off my schooling as I went, and I did get a lot paid off, but I found that I liked to renovate and decorate my home which required a bit of change out of my pocket. While my friends were partying and going on trips, I was sanding my floors and painting ceilings.

After some time and hearing stories of other employees that had received the same promise of an office position, a secretary position opened up at my relative’s business. I wasn’t going to chance never getting that office position in the factory so I accepted the offer at my relative’s business. This position involved everything I was going to school for and I was going to work with some great people. It really helped me gain some experience in my field of study, but it didn’t work out in the end.

Although it was sad to leave that job (still love my old bosses!), another door opened up for me… after months of applying for secretary and accounting positions, I landed a kitchen designer job. This had to be a dream come true right??

I accepted the offer and began training a little over a month ago. I learned an incredible amount over this time period (you would not believe how much there is to know about cabinetry) and was able to help create designs. I actually was able to get over an anxiety of mine…for the past few years I have had anxiety being in a vehicle for “long” distances (sometimes just a half hour)…I’m not sure if this came about when I started working overnights and taking classes at the same time and never leaving the house?? Whatever the cause, the constant driving really helped me get over this hurdle.

I also was able to gain confidence. I wouldn’t say I’m horrible with people, I’m a bit shy. This job allowed me to go into customers’ homes and speak with them and spread the knowledge about our products. I also learned a bit about the business side of designing and how it is important to promote yourself. As much as I loved designing and the job itself, it didn’t work out for me. (and as much as I’d love to let off some steam and explain what had happened, I’ll bite my tongue and just leave it at that. )

…here I am once again wounded by that damn truck.

One door closed, another door opened, and here we are pounded shut again.. It’s all a road map to an unknown destination.

One thing that keeps me going is to look at my past…from all the great to shitty things that have happened…it’s all happened for a reason. So, I will have to hold onto faith that something good will come out of this…that the best is yet to come. (at least so they say)

Updates and Catching Up

Hello friends!

So initially this blog was to be strictly home décor, well I’m changing my mind. Like I often do. I love home décor and renovating, but there’s only so much a girl with a tight budget can do. You know what I’m saying?

I am going to be adding posts about easy recipes and possibly beauty. I think with a greater variety of topics to share with you all, the more I will be inspired to create new posts. 😉

What’s going on my life since I haven’t written in a couple of weeks? I have interviewing away and searching for a career. I never knew it could be this difficult. You think once you get a degree that you will be able to find a job right away…wrong. Employers are not only looking for education, but experience as well. Not the easiest task fresh out of college.

The saying “Everything happens for a reason” replays in my head about 50 times a day. “You didn’t get this job because it wasn’t the right one…there’s a better one coming!” It’s hard to stay positive when your scraping for pennies. The best thing to do in my situation is to TRY to stay positive.

Stay positive that things will get better and this is just a minor slump. I’m filling out applications and sending in resumes left and right… I’m doing everything I should in my situation….right?

When times are rough like this, it’s important to enjoy and embrace the little things. AND ABSOLUTELY NO ONLINE SHOPPING. Right now I have the time to reflect on what I really want to do in life and what my goals are.  It’s an opportunity to see what you can do with little money. I also have time to finish things around the house that I couldn’t do while I was working…There’s always a bright side if you just give yourself a chance to look.

Other than my job hunting, we are done with the drywall and painting in the new office! Next on the list is the ceiling!

 

 

New posts are on their way!